Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Heartbreaking...I get it now. Therapy today

So when my therapist said, "What happened to you as a child was heartbreaking" has context. I argued with her, at the time, that I didn't understand what she meant. Now, after today's session, I realize a number of things.
One, in recounting my story of an important intimate object that was taken from me when I was a teen, I stated, "Now That was heartbreaking" as well as the last time I ever felt the feeling sensation of love.
Two, love is a choice and back then I decided that I would never feel such heartbreak again. I chose not to feel it.
Three, Neo therapist said people feel love often on a daily basis. I was in disbelief. The look on her face was almost grave and noticeably sad. I think it's not something she's exposed to often, people like me that won't feel it. Plus, I believe she has a much better understanding of the emotional state I've been existing in.
Four, I believe that Neo genuinely wants to help us with no strings attached. She is "The One".
I need to decide...now that I have the tool of awareness and knowledge..if I'm willing to take the risk again and feel love.
Daunting...maybe most would jump at the chance. When I hurt, I hurt deeply. I know that everything, everyone will eventually leave me and I'll be hurt again.
Pondering

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