Acrylic on wood
Tuesday, November 19, 2024
Sunday, November 10, 2024
Wednesday, November 6, 2024
I am just a nothing
Unwanted
Unwarranted
Unloved
If I fell in the forest
The leaves and roots
Would reclaim me
Before anyone noticed
I am nobody
To come home to
To hug
To smile at
To look forward to
I am awash in
Anonymity
And disconnect
Few distant
Relationships
Nothing close
No one close
At my side
Sitting next to me
Across the table
Alongside the
Sidewalk
The Aloneness
Of months and years,
Knowing my future
Months and years
Will be more of the same.
She stood invisible
In heavy traffic
No one noticed
She had stepped
In the road
Or cared
That she did
She was nobody
A nobody
Insignificant
Of No importance
To any one
But her self
And then
She stopped
Caring
About herself.
The nobody
Had no one
And they call it life
Even when it is filled to the brim
With pain
Radiating
Exploding
Unceasing
Bringing her to her knees
Unnamed
From places and
Circumstances unknown
She was consumed
By the pain...
...
...
...
And she
In her extreme Aloneness
And agonizing pain
Wrote this...
Maybe someone will hear
And know she is there
And can understand
How deeply she suffers
In her silence
In her dark
Little corner...
...
No one looks for her
No one misses her
No one hugs her
No one wants to be by her
No one tells her
I miss you
I love you
I'm happy to see you...
She is very sad
Nobody is very very sad
😔
Monday, October 28, 2024
She's talking about Incest again, omg, like she spent her entire childhood being raped every week, Family Secrets
Watching this documentary, made me realize how easy it was for siblings and family members to picture me as nothing but a liar, out for some hidden, non-existant gain. Seriously, what possible motivation does a child or an adult have that they would blatantly talk about being sexually abused, raped by a family member? The only reason is to free themselves from the pain and shame of being forced to keep secrets for years and decades. Freedom can be found in words, truth spoken. The emotional pain is lessened and can start healing Only with the spoken words.
People see what they want to see, especially in families deeply entrenched with physical and sexual abuses. No one wants to believe a father could molest his daughter week after week, year after year.
If so, why didn't she tell anybody? Like anyone would believe one little girl over a family's rally cry behind the good husbandfather. Threats were constant, violent and frequent.
It's good to see incest being talked about.
Truth is truth, even if it's ugly and makes your stomach turn and you don't want to believe it.
Incest Happens
Talk about it
Don't ever let the perpetrators win
Start healing
Speak your truth
Wednesday, October 23, 2024
Stop loving your mother
It was actually really easy to stop caring about my mother once I remembered how she whored me at 5 for groceries every week.
I really do not care about her at all anymore. Oh darn, the mother child bond broken by gross criminal malfeasance.
Monday, October 21, 2024
Barn Quilts
My latest project is perfect for me. It's cloudy winter. I require bright colors. I love to paint but have no original designs hanging out within my head. Enter the Barn Quilt. A single quilt block, painted on to wood and hung outdoors on a building or indoors.
The first one I completed [all are acrylic paint on 12" X 12" wood] is called many names: Hidden Star, Pigs in a Blanket, or LeMoyne Star, to name a few.
The second one is called Courthouse Steps with the black center representing the judge.
The third is the most popular quilt block, the Log Cabin. The red center represents the hearth of the home. The pattern is hundreds of years old.
Every day I paint for a few hours. Love it.
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