Female Aspergers Syndrome Traits 2 Section B

The second section of the video is Section B: Innocent
Right from the start, I want to say that I feel vulnerable writing and sharing this info. Whilst a lot of it Is definitely true, I feel a bit overexposed. Thus, to alleviate my anxiety, I will only comment with personal info on the items I feel comfortable.
1) Naive
Argh...it is tough to admit and I've gotten less so, as I've matured. To me, naive is dangerous because people take advantage of the naive. It's great to have a child-like innocence, just don't hang with predators.
2) Honest
Very True. And might I add, honest to a fault and also to ones owns detriment at times? Honesty Is one of the Many very Positive Traits of being Aspie!!!!
3) Experiences trouble lying
My Eldest Aspie son didn't learn to lie until he was ten. My NT LittleGuy figured out lying at four. And the LittleGuy is very good at it.
4) Finds it difficult to understand manipulation and disloyalty
5) Finds it difficult to understand vindictive behavior and retaliation

6) Easily fooled and conned
....leading to constant fear of embarrassment, unfortunately. I think this contributes to my complete dislike....nah, hatred, of April Fools day and any and all pranks.
7) Feelings of confusion and being overwhelmed
Sigh, I think I have always lived in a fog of confusion.


8) Feelings of being misplaced and/ or from another planet
Hence, the name of my blog. I frequently feel like an alien, stranger in a strange land, visitor from another planet...that I'm a different species...that the Mothership dropped me here, by accident and may never return.

9) Feelings of isolation
Frequently. An island in the middle of a vast ocean.
10) Abused or taken advantage of as a child but didn't think to tell anyone
True

More later:)

Aspergers and Weather and Sound....ill wind blows

Feeling like a prolific writer today.


I stepped out my door....and felt chaotic anxiety. It was all due to the weather.
My acute autistic sensitivity went into overdrive. I clamped my hands over my ears and retreated.
First off, the sound of the oak forest was positively deafening. "Hands over ears" either the real action or just the thought of doing it,.....means the sound is hurting me. It was akin to standing at an ocean shoreline, right up close and gigantic waves crashed repeatedly. Loud sounds hurt.
The second thing that bothered me was the clouds. The sky, visually, looked turbulent and chaotic. Black cloud, nimbostratus and nimbocumulus, were erratically isolated in patches of puffy white. Amongst some of the black, the sun would shine through. The sky was all wrong.


The third issue....my skin felt oscillating, varying small, unpredictable....winds. It's like the wind was constantly shifting in unpredictable patterns. My frizzy hair was tossed into multiple directions. All my sensors were being overstimulated and rapidly being flicked on and off and on and off.
Yeah, I was kinda freakin out....for no other reason then the external environment.
It reminded me of the saying, "an ill wind is blowing." It definitely made me feel unwell through and through.
I've noticed that when hurricanes or tornadoes take place in other parts of the country, and the remnants of such devastating, destructive storms makes its way up here, that I can feel....almost terror and definitely fear. It's as if the emotions the storms caused gets "caught up" and carried in the storm winds and then it travels.
If I had no access to the weather channel, I could easily tell if the approaching storm had caused destruction just by how I feel.
There are definitely days I Do Not want to go outdoors due to the atmosphere. Days it scares me, sets hairs on end and just irritates me. Today is one of those days.


Looking back at my childhood and younger years, I can't help but wonder how many times I felt disgruntled and completely out-of-sorts and didn't know why.....