Covered in veils and dust
Hidden deep within
The cavern of my self
Not sure I'd recognize
Who I really am
Afraid
To show, to see
To let on
I am wool and blankets
Armor and steel
Running water
Hot, cold, steaming, still
Who am I really
Scared
To reach out, touch
Show you me
I am temperance and rage
The bullied and the beast
Howling pain
What I feel
Forlorn
Hurt and alone
True
I am lost
Somewhere
Deep within
Beneath layer of rock, mortar and whim
I am a mirror that repels
I am the truth that hurts and reminds
Killing denial sharply to the bone
I am the wisdom
You dare not seek
I am the nightmare
That walks in daylight
Look away
Look away
I hide from myself
I hide from you
I hide from masses
I am unlike you
I'm not who you think
Imagine or cajole
I wear an honest shirt
Under shields of grey
My past lives within
Seeking an open door
A cracked window
Putty that has come loose
My shackles bind
The ropes entwined
Weights of doubt
Drown and submerged
The table is set
No one comes to feast
Only observe
The linen
Stained
The bread
Stale
The wine
Spilt
Alone
In the house
Walls echo
Weep and bleed
The clock frozen
Upon
Her face
Arms and chest
Floors creak
Unable to bear
The weight
Of the silence
Of her years
The sofa unsat
A bed unmade
Slippers unused
The bathrobe hangs
On the floor
Untouched
Untethered
What's the difference
Tween a rock
And a soft place
White snowflakes
Hiding mounds of dirt
Break the shovel
Look away
Search not
Accept that the mountain
Will not yield
Undeserving of contemplation
Or to be climbed
Removed
Or melted
She wept
As the snow piled high
Caved in
From the sun
