The Many Reasons I Sometimes Cannot Talk

In rethinking my post, "When I Cannot Speak", there are actually a multitude of reasons I am unable to utter a single word.

1) When I am in one of my autistic exhaustion shutdown modes,and I simply do not have the energy.

2) if I get very emotional, verbal center shuts down

3) sometimes I have two or three trains of thought vying to get out at once

4) I go selectively mute when overwhelmed with anxiety

5) I cannot pronounce words, names....for reasons unknown to me. Unusual proper people names that don't compute in my Aspie brain

6) words that can have sexual connotations, pleasure, s t i m, g r o i n. And words I consider gross....f e c e s, c r a p, v o m i t....sometimes I can say them, but rarely

7) I cannot pronounce words, Not already in my mental dictionary, like acacia as an example, properly unless I hear someone say it and then consciously write out the word in my head.

8) when younger, non-verbal or mute parts of myself are fully present

Verbalizing...well, it's very complicated