Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

When I was an autistic child....



I was undiagnosed. I believed what adults told me regarding my behavior. I believed that I was "rude", "belligerent", "disrespectful", self-centered, thoughtless and inconsiderate. And All the times i was scolded for not listening or paying attention to what i was doing. I had no awareness that my behavior was due to an undiagnosed developmental disorder. I really thought I was rude and inconsiderate. As a child, I trusted and believed the adults around me.
I carried these mistaken beliefs through my entire childhood, the teen years and all the way until I was in my late forties. Now, at this point in time, with a new awareness of my autism, I can look back and say, OMG!
I wasn't the mean-spirited child that I was proclaimed to be. I wasn't the kid that needed daily slappings and punishment. I was, in actuality, an overly sensitive, over looked Aspie.
I really thought that all my nonverbal behavior was within my control, even though I tried my damnedest, I was sure that I was not speaking out of disrespect or downright bad behavior on my part.
I look back with a tear and a laugh. It seems so ridiculous from my current vantage point.
Wow, that's a lot of info to absorb...just wow.
I wasn't mean, bad, cruel, unthoughtful....hmmmmm. I was just autistic. An autistic child, who more than anything, desperately needed understand, kindness and extra help processing life's confusing events.
I was so lost in the everyday confusion of home life and school. I look back at the very sad self that I was. I needed help and I could not ask for it. God, did I need help.
I see now, some of the mistaken beliefs that have shaped me and that I have carried with me as truths.
It takes me awhile to process new info, especially info this big. Time to think about it. I'll get back to you in a few:)

3 comments:

  1. How can someone contact you? Do you have an email address or FB account?
    miraclesawait555@hotmail.com

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  2. Hi Ande, I tried your email but it was returned. How can I find you on fb? Amy

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  3. sorry Amy :-( Please try justpassinthru444@hotmail.com
    and I'm on FB under Lea Gabriel. A picture of me holding a horse. Thank you.

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