Everything I've read regarding Autism, CPTSD and Multiple Personality Disorder, indicates that excessive fatigue, entire days whereby I'm a veg and do nothing but lounge spacily on the sofa, is perfectly normal! Something about lowered immunity from all those years of flight, fight and freeze, overstimuli, the energy expounded in switching and heavy emotions can make one highly tired.
I oft feel guilty like I should be doing something productive with my time, dishes, pursuing a special interest, getting caught up on books or the mail, but, alas I am in a days long stretch of rest and unfunction. Sure, I could push myself and get up, however, this old dog has been learning to listen to her body especially when it needs quiet, solitude and naps.
I may not be high maintenance but I sure am high rest.
This Is normal, this is normal, this is normal. I'm not sick or something. This is my overworked, overly traumatized body's basic requirements.
I get the reasons I am unable to hold a job, take classes, go to group functions, date or social get togethers. There is a reason my weekly calendar has no more than three appointments a week...It's all I can handle.
Yeah, I'm a quiet, introverted, healing being, I am. Zzzzzz
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