Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Friday, January 30, 2015

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Life & Death

Anxiety vs Stress

anx·i·e·ty
aNGˈzīədē/
noun
  1. a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.

    I'm learning the difference between anxiety and stress. Anxiety is more mental, cerebral...a constant state of worryfear. I lived with incessant anxiety until a month or two ago. It was as if every fiber, cell of my being was interlocked, encased in fear.
     Via therapy, the locked-in anxiety spontaneously released. I entered what I'm guessing to be, a temporary peace, a normality, a slowed down boredom venturing on the mundane. 
    Overall, I very much enjoyed this newfound sensation. As if my whole body had released a webbed wall of chained fear.
     Well, that state of peace has proven to be temporary, as I've noticed, just recently a visceral, constant state of bodily tension and stress. Whereas the anxiety was a light webbing, this tension stress is heavy, physical, deeper, thicker. I don't think of it as a web so much as a wall. It's agitation, pressure and completely physical in nature. 
     Tension is frustration, dismay and general feelings of ineptitude and being unable to go in the direction I want without effort, almost pain.
     Gut wrenching. I feel it in my belly more than anywhere else. Every little task seems drought with physical frustration. Did I mention ineptitude?
    I feel so deeply frustrated within myself. Can't seem to find me good enough or capable of completing physical task that I really want done.
      stress
    stres/
    noun
    1. 1
      pressure or tension exerted on a material object.
      "the distribution of stress is uniform across the bar"
      synonyms:pressuretensionstrain
      "the stress is uniform across the bar"
    2. 2
      a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances.

      This is just where I  these days. It's like I've changed states...from anxious to frustrated stress.
      I'm learning, being able and aware to identify a little bit more of how I feel.
      Guess it's progess.







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