First, maybe I'll drive to the local park instead of walking. That will eliminate any sidewalk stranger nervousness.
Second, I can pick a park that I believe to be in less use today. The sky says much scattered rain, so most parks should be reduced due to that factor alone. I'm considering if the shorter park for only walkers might be less crowded than the larger park, a greater distance, that also caters to bicycles, horses, and typically, a whole lot of dogs. Since the aggressive dog incidents times 2, a year or two or three ago, that particular park tends to raise anxiety whenever it's thought about and whenever I am there and see any dog, especially larger ones. (The smaller ones I worry about less as they are "kickable" like a football if they attack. I say that with only half a jest and I own a wonderful small dog that I love enormously.) Yes, I fear attack there and have to "armor up" mentally, emotionally if I go there but, ah, it is so beautiful there and I do wonder what the wildflowers say and think that may currently be blooming there.
Decisions...
The rain is a factor. My tennis shoes may get wet. I have no "rain off" waterproof shoes. Wet socks can make me highly unpleasant and extremely uncomfortable but I have been in the house too much much. My physical corporeal being strongly wishes, nay, requires movement.
Conundrum after Conundrum, the wheel of life erratically spins, slows down and throws me off on occasion to deal with enclosed recesses filled with wild, toothy beasts and surmountable problems to mill through and climb.
Dilemma....
If I do go out for a walk, if I actually venture out that far, a reward is in order either a welcome treat of a big coffee or a sidetrip to a thrift store with a 10$ reward fee. There, I have sweetened the pot, as it were. Time to get ready to go out that big red door into the wilds of life outside my tiny, amazing and safe fortress.
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