Even though I love and adore my sisters, I still felt the old stirrings and bristling of Social Anxiety and took some meds. Just the thought of being in a house full of people's, even ones I adore, sets my flight or fight mechanism all atwitter.
To add to my anxiety, the gathering was taking place in a new setting, a new house. Change and uncertainty are sure fire triggers for stress. Ahhh, in addition, there were two brand new little peoples that would be attending, two new months old tiny human babies. So, I was a bit on edge, unknowing what to expect or how I would react to so much new.
I ended up having a wonderful time. I hadn't seen my friends in over a year, but we all gelled and congealed as if we hadn't been apart. That's what family friends are supposed to be like. That's when you know the affection and caring is mutual.
It will take awhile to get used to this new venue. I really didn't scope out the new house as I found the greatest joy and comfort in rocking and holding the little, bright, brilliant beings. I settled into my little niche, sat back and observed, thoroughly enjoying myself all the while.
I struggled to get into my social mode, but I am glad I did:)
