The years, the nights spent in the thick fog of loneliness, praying and pleading for someone of worth to come along and hold out their hand.....an Aspie only needs one true friend for that entire realm of loneliness to go away.
A prayer answered is highly cherished. Aspie doesn't need a dozen, a handful or even a few. Every Aspie craves one person in this alien world to be able to communicate with. It seems like such a small, small request...but it's near impossible to accomplish.
It's hard to see and hear others doing this, going there, engaging in that....when one was not born with the mechanism or know how to inquire, to speak, to exchange pleasantries, share a joke, go out to eat.
I used to kinda talk down about my son who had just the one friend...hmmm, now I get it. Now I understand why one friend can mean so much.
Because that was all he needed to feel good about himself and his place in the world.
One friend cures loneliness. That simple.
Friendship is such an enormous gift. I wish I knew the secret formula
Must be feeling rather isolated, locked in.
I mean, some, probably most have family members available,that care or that they can count on. I don't...haven't for years...but I do remember what it was like.
Hmm, I used to have a half dozen people's I could drop in on, call or see a movie with. Damn, just guess I felt like suffering tonight. Damn, that was probably the best thing about my immediate and extended family. Someone cared, someone wanted to talk with...sometimes even asking for advice or my Opinion. Wow...why did I give that up again? At this moment that seems like heaven.Damn. Something just isn't working for me. Frolicking in the depths of despair. Remembering...wondering...
I know I'm not the only one
I just wish I could make me and every one who feels like this better..because god its awful.
Nothing like pouring my heart out at 5am
I wonder if anyone knows I'm here
