Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Friday, July 6, 2012

Too much time awake

Methinks too much with mind awake and body tired.
Strange, dark and gloomy feelings in the midst. It took me a few moments to realize that it is my old and cherished friend, loneliness.
Loneliness: the want of another; wanting someone who likes you to be near, to converse with, to share with...hoping it will be awhile before they get really irritating and you have to send them off.
Damn, hadn't communed with loneliness...for awhile.
Just realized that I have had one outside conversation that week. It also dawned on me that no one has called. No hounds of love or like looking for me....again.
Guess summer is a busy time...peoples want to spend it with family.
So if you don't have family, you are kinda screwed. If you don't rake high up on that ladder of priority And tell many friends can rate anywhere...even beloved family?
Is it so much to be wanted?
I don't think I was ever wanted
Came into this world, arms one on that receiving end. There was no one there. Guess I have a little predisposition to loneliness, feeling lost and unwanted. Sigh
Not sure how to fix that one
What kind of rug or lumber can you buy to cover up That hole.
How do you make peoples care about you?
How do you get thems to want to be around you?
Seems a lifelong problem I haven't figured out yet
I have never felt wanted...unless someone wanted to use me
Few value my company
Very, very, very few

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