Argh, this is the first time that I've noticed my tics changing. I added a new one a couple weeks back. Completely unintentionally, mind you. It just dramatically surfaced at a therapy session.
I Grimace. More precisely, I grit my teeth and grimace as I shake my head three times. This has got to be one of the least attractive tics! I so dislike the look that I imagine I'm making. Its disturbing to my logic and sensibilities but after I do it, it feels amazingly good!
The feeling exceptionally good part after a tic is new for me, as well. Autism is proving to be a dynamic not stagnant way of being.
Sure, most of my tics have remained the same for years at a time. But at 55, to gain a new one surprises me a great deal.
Why? Is a big question I have. Why a new tic? Why a more intense pleasure factor? Why now at my age?
I have many questions. But for now I'm just enjoying And being repulsed by my new friend, Grimace.
I Grimace. More precisely, I grit my teeth and grimace as I shake my head three times. This has got to be one of the least attractive tics! I so dislike the look that I imagine I'm making. Its disturbing to my logic and sensibilities but after I do it, it feels amazingly good!
The feeling exceptionally good part after a tic is new for me, as well. Autism is proving to be a dynamic not stagnant way of being.
Sure, most of my tics have remained the same for years at a time. But at 55, to gain a new one surprises me a great deal.
Why? Is a big question I have. Why a new tic? Why a more intense pleasure factor? Why now at my age?
I have many questions. But for now I'm just enjoying And being repulsed by my new friend, Grimace.
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