So, this behavior of the past ten years...this cruel, treating me like a subhuman far beneath her and never worthy of being anywhere near equal her...this..treating me as if I had no needs and was just a fixture on the couch, and had no say in anything, didn't ever deserve a kind word or compliment...all this behavior of hers..had to be subconscious right? I mean, no one would knowingly, consciously treat another human being like that, right? I don't understand how anyone could be cruel...so it must be some mental defect or serious oversight? Are some people really that mean, cold and calculating? Is that possible? Am I simply too naive and kind that I find it impossible to fathom that one human would knowingly treat another human that poorly?
My health insurance came through today! Hope it doesn't take me long to find the right therapist. This is one of the first items up for discussion cause part of me feels....disgusted, confused, perplexed, hurt? That this denigrating behavior continued for as many years as it did.
