Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Sign 185 that you were in a bad relationship

When you leave a 20 year relationship with a 12 year old you raised together and there is no alimony or child support.
Anytime I fill out forms for government assistance, I'm asked if there is child support. Today applying for Healthcare was no different. And it got me thinking.
This is yet another huge red flag, warning sign that I was in a bad relationship. See, most parents, the non narcissistic, healthy parents, would ensure their child was taken care of, but not here.
It reminded me that the relationship was based on me playing second, always being less than her, someone to shit on and kiss her ass. As long as I was willing to be her second, her dump shit she doesn't need or want, happily grateful for the crumbs...the relationship worked because it met her needs exactly. Things only started going downhill when I'd try to be her equal which upset the balance of power and control. That's what destroyed the relationship...me asking to be treated like a hunan, an equal. Her answer was hell no, of course. She needs to maintain some hierarchical higher ground to keep her fragile ego stoked. She needs someone weaker to manipulate and control.
Yeah, things get so much clearer from a distance. And yes, I deserve so much better.

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