Today, I noticed that just before I switched that my body felt heavy, like I was sinking deeply into the couch.
Sometimes I'll feel dizzy like I can't quite complete my sentences and the roller coaster is slowing to a stop.
I've had switches do fast that I felt nothing but a blink.
Rarely, I've felt as if I'm falling backwards into myself. It's not scarey, maybe because I've done it so many times before.
Sometimes it feels as if I'm sitting next to another part of me and if I, say glance right, I'll fall away and she will be out.
Having so little time in therapy, and with how long it can take to switch, about 5-15 minutes, I may end up employee a strategy that worked with therapist #2, having different alters come out in the waiting room and walking into the office. It eliminates that frustrating beginning and gets right to things that matter. I'd forgotten how often and how well that worked with #2.
Now that I am back in therapy and more aware of what's transpiring, expect more insight into DID, MPD.
