Prepare to enter the wild and wooly world of an adult with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of autism characterized by intellignce, quirks, social difficulties and downright strange and oddish behaviours.

People with Aspergers generally are high functioning in everyday life but have great difficulty connecting with others due to the inability to read faces, body language and subtle verbal clues. They also tend to take words literally and have a hard time multi-tasking.

Oversensitivity to touch (clothing has to be soft and often the tags removed), light (do not leave home without the sunglasses), sound (loud noises and noisey places are avoided), taste (many Aspies have quite a limited diet and are frequently very picky eaters) and smells makes the everyday existence more of a challenge.

Fasten your seatbelts and come on in...
To find out more about what Aspergers is..please check out my earliest blog entries

Monday, June 20, 2016

The War is Won

The battle I have been fighting for over half a won. Managing to keep the soldiers in line and the borders fully guarded, the children fed and the women safe is done. The enemy at the gate is no longer there.
A new, unwritten chapter has begun, one in which I have choice and freewill. Two things that I am completely unfamiliar with. But I welcome these two strangers as I say goodbye to helplessness and old, entrenched patterns. No longer do I need to exert myself dragging weaponry up and down and back up that hill. No more do I fear the sight or smell of others as the perpetually attacking beast of my youth is now gone...and buried.
I do not belong to anyone but myself. There is no one above me, with hands on my neck or words that make me tremble in fear. I cannot express the sheer volume of weighted down baggage that I have finally one hour, just today.
Oh, I've had dozens of moments where my life has changed...most of them due to something disturbing or tragic...but this, this is nothing but good.
It was a long fought battle and I have fought well, valiantly and with great courage.
Time to recover for a spell, rest much and reconsolidate. I have but one main be happy and to learn to live my life without armor, without running and to rediscover who and what I am under these well-healed scars.
Tomorrow shall be a very new day.
I'm not who I was when I woke up this morning.
I appreciate that.
Bring on the morn

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