I believe that I have always been much more afraid of living than if dying.
Living has been an excruciatingly painful experience. I've been afraid of being hungry, being cold, being beaten, molested, and hurt.
I picture death as being painfree, worryfree, finally.
I have no fear of death...its the living that scares me.
I don't know that I will ever be loved. I mean, I have few family and some dear friends, but I don't know that a love relationship will ever be mine.
I'm safe now. I have food, shelter and I'm free from anyone actively trying to hurt me. I should feel good, no?
Living has been an excruciatingly painful experience. I've been afraid of being hungry, being cold, being beaten, molested, and hurt.
I picture death as being painfree, worryfree, finally.
I have no fear of death...its the living that scares me.
I don't know that I will ever be loved. I mean, I have few family and some dear friends, but I don't know that a love relationship will ever be mine.
I'm safe now. I have food, shelter and I'm free from anyone actively trying to hurt me. I should feel good, no?
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