Feeling Better:)

Whew, the last four weeks were an exhausting trial of wit, strength and stamina. Yesterday, I finally started feeling like my old self, tired, sore but functional. My best guess as to what was taking place within my body, was some type of Lyme flare-up, heavy bacterial die off (when the bacteria die off, they excrete a neurotoxin) resulting in me feeling positively putrid for those weeks. I firmly believe the acupuncture, along with the half-dozen supplements and medications I take, promoted my body to kill off a large amount of the Lyme.
 Lyme doesn't have a singular proven cure. It is a different series of medications and supplements for each individual. I'm working, along with my nurse practitioner, therapist and acupuncturist, to procure the appropriate treatment for me.
 One thing I'm learning is to trust my body and it's reactions. I'm learning to listen and monitor everything I ingest or each procedure I do, to find which ones work. It's an arduous, daily, all-day long process, but there is no other way to heal. And it's definitely time to look at how my body got so sick and learn how to build myself up. I'd say build it back up, but I've never really been in a healthy, calm state of being.
  Healing has to take in account, well, every aspect of my being. Emotionally, my therapist and I are examining the damaging thought patterns and stuck body memories. They are like enteric roadblocks. My nurse practitioner, my doc, is helping me learn about the bacteria and medications, including diet and alternative helpers. My acupuncturist is working with me to release the energetic blockages throughout my system, in addition to offering advice. I've got three very wise professionals on my team. Every one is working together with me in order to give me back my life.
 I sleep a ton. It's part of having the disease. I've had some interesting, even delightful and insightful dreams that offer me respite and clues.
 I spend hours, almost everyday, scanning the internet, reading and researching, learning more about what works, what doesn't, what to try and what to avoid. My new theme is "Know Thine Enemy". In learning about the bacteria and how it lives, it allows me to better access how to eradicat it.
 Let me tell you...Gratitude is big with me. I'm grateful when I can muster the mental and physical strength to just get out of bed. I think I've said it recently...I'm thoroughly amazed at the resolve and inner strength that I have found! I'm thrilled that I lived and dragged my sorry ass through, those truly painful four weeks! I do applaud myself!! Loudly!
 I'm sensing a bit of hope. And I'm holding onto it tightly:)
 Thank you for reading. Stay well